Sometimes....

It just feels like your life gets turned upside down for no reason other than that is what the Gods decree will happen -- Ko and Andi poked at me to chose one, well mostly Andi did, and well, I chose Ko. Andi discaded me rather quickly to go chasing after Revh's skirt. sighs softly


So Ko promised me that I could be part of his House. And since making this promise has thrown me pretty hard at his son, Majestad. Who..I've taken as a pet. /smiles I like pets.... Nilok spent the evening with me last night, and that was nice. Sometimes it's nice to spent time curled around someone, and he and I talked rather frankly...and there is a soft, gentle guy underneath all the scary. He said he wouldn't let his feelings for me interfere with the need for Discipline. He also bit me! I like biting. I told him no vithing...and he respected that.

In other news the quest for the Apprentice went very very very well and we acquired him.
Watching Nilok question him was painfully hard. I know it had to be done, but what he said didn't make a lot of sense. After all, the Lord Commander is not a ... well, he just isn't.

Nilok. That's hard for me to decide. He's nice, and belonging to his House means I would have a family again. And I really want a family. *wraps her arms around herself* But he's so fickle, and I want a forever mate, not... well.... I don't think that I could stand being discarded again the way that Andi discarded me before.

Why does life have to hurt so damned bad....